Saturday, June 19

sweet fanny adam, I am gutted

death so instant I wonder what's sudden about life. why can't life seem like being hit by a car, the entry, then maybe it does feel like being hit by a car. birth. then death of a young man, and I'm not going anywhere with this post. I can't.

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  1. grace [Moderator] 4 minutes ago


    it's a tough post.

    I, ginaB, keep forgetting about this stupid fucking Disquis or whatever it is. stupid.

    everything is stupid.

    yes, a tough post. yes.

    hugs to you grace. but even hugs are stupid. it's all stupid.

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  2. I have just wanted to cry all day, but instead, I did a web search and found some really wonderful old blog post of his that reminded me of why I loved what happened to us all when Pete and TBWHM brought us together.

    I might dig up my saved copy of the Walking on the Grid video. It never fails to make me smile.

    xx
    AM

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  3. no, Gina never feel hugs are stupid. They aren't. Sometimes there is nothing like a good hug. ((hug))xo

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  4. The only thing I can take away from this sad day is to live life more on my terms, try to get out of my comfort zone, or my shadow and enjoy it. It's cliche I know, but it can be over in a second, it really can. I feel lucky to have known him, however limited our communication was, the emails we exchanged were honest and real, and yes hilariously funny. I'll always think of him and smile.

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  5. Anne Marie, I would like to see your web searchs.

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  6. okay, hugs aren't poisonous. did I spell that right?

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  7. Makes me upset that such a brilliant man probably could not often - if ever - see/feel how loved he was. Wish to have known Neil better. I didn't. Only from reading and going along for the joy rides past. I wish lightening in short time to heavy hearts. I'm so sorry.

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  8. oh, i don't know he didn't know or he did. I'm thankful I got a chance to tell him what he meant. I did. I forget what I said, but it's in a recent e-mail.

    Maybe I sounded loony. Maybe my words made their way in. Maybe he knew how much he meant to C. (I am confident about that.)

    I wish I could hear his take on all this, on his death. He would make us laugh. I know he would.

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  9. I bet he would most certainly make us all laugh Gina. He is probably up there, thinking, damn, I could really have something to say about all this....He had a very special wit! and am sure he knew how much he meant, and you didn't sound looney.

    xx

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